I wish my thoughts were clear but they are not

I wish my thoughts made sense but they don't

Maybe I really don't want the wishes to come true

Because I am scared of what I'll find.

I feel an energy that consumes me

An energy that fills me up

Leads me

To an unknown destination

Of good

In a way I don't understand

In a way I am not sure I can handle

Involving matters that make me uncertain

Matters I find hard to see the meaning of

And I am afraid of loosing touch

With the feeling

And I believe the feeling

Comes from following the feeling

And I am trying

But confused

By the many options laid out before me

For I know not what is right

Even though I know