The confusion has peaked after several lows and highs during the last couple of days. Nothing too scary though, except for the surprising lack of emotional impact. And that is actually quite scary. And I realized how much these past 10 months have been tearing down on my feelings and to fulfill other purposes I have neglected my own needs to an extent that now has a price.

That is nothing new. We all have our limits. I met mine.

I'm in a hole, but I have a ladder. Somewhere.