To be honest ... I feel like shit. It is as simple as that. I have got the flu and my sense of loneliness is overwhelming. It is draining me, keeping me awake and torturing me with memories of being loved and cared for while sick. And while I sit here in Denmark, where I hardly feel I belong anymore, and stare out into the cold, thin air, trying to get over my flu, the new year has begon.

Beyond doubt I feel it is going to be a great year and I am sure I will find it's rythm soon enough.

It just a really hard beginning.